Well as you can see it is 10 til 10pm here where I am.As U know we should have left at 6pm for the 12 plus hr.drive.Who knew I had so much.I have worked my ASS off.Literally for 2yrs.If you've seen blog...Recap/1st tore up carpet 2 painted 3 odds and ends lots.4 redid kitchen.I basically taught myself woodwork and things.Flooring,tile work.Gathering all of alan's manly,military,just things I would not need for the following 18mths.(While he was away).

  Now as U know I am sorting thru all these things again!!For our move also as you know he has only came in a handful of times for 2 nights and 3 days AT MOST.Before leaving .I'm not blaming him at all.He just hasn't had time to do anything.So slowly very slowly I have been picking thru our things trying to decide what to take what to leave behind to deal with next mth.(i will be back middle next mth for 2-3wks)So that has kinda taken a little pressure off of me. So my in laws are to come by and say bye.Actually take us out to eat.That got kuput because of the all day guard thing...(my fault of course...Anything WRONG in al's life has always and apparently always will be ME(i'm the problem) So set up mom and I are in bedroom packing and trying to straighten up when I hear that voice,not the voice as much as that TONE in the voice..............so my mind says BREATH