summary of 17yrs--- Liked me,we lived with them for around 1 yr over garage.Mom starts to not like me because al is not doing as they wish....Dad is ok with me thinking mom is just overreacting that there son is just growing up and has a mind of his own.(imagine)al makes some mistakes as 18-19yr olds do from time to time.I get blame.I take it thinking it will subside.Wrong...It turns into her or me.He chose me.I didn't ask him to make this decision.I stop going to xmas,get 2 gethers.Fine.I get pregnant with ch**and its so bad that he doesn't tell his mother.She finds out she has grandchild 2 days after he is born....Not my decision. So truce for grandchild,resume xmas with them.Its awful because I am blatently ignored.I leave feeling sad,crying.Doesn't sit well with al.He loves me and doesn't want me to hurt.Well what happens al has to go to Iraq for 18mths.I'm left to deal with THEM.So I prepare for being treated like shit which i'm used to..(when he left for Iraq i'm crying and she looks at her husband and says I'm pathetic.)This family never says I Love You to each other.So my crying was utterly ignorant to them...
I'm dealing with father in law come pick son up for weekend,bring back no mother in law.Til my son wants us to get together.I for some unknown reason have always wanted this womans approval.(???)We talk from 6:30pm til 3am.It was great I felt so good.Don't get me wrong remember I told you she liked me at first.Til I couldn't control al anymore.So I'm sending her e-mail,e-cards making sure she knows alan is ok in Iraq...I'm trying to help mend there relationship.I'm just an idiot...Its that simple.Now I know it was all an act.No true intensions only on my behalf.......so back tonight