We all have them.Sometimes we choose to ignore them for the best.Or they just don't have rhyme or reason behind them.Sometimes when we go against our "gut"feelings or intuition it is bad.So some of us learn the hard way.I have over the yrs learned the hard way.How about you?Do you always follow your gut?Have you regret ed in the end that you should have listened to that little voice inside?

      This is were i am.I have a gut feeling no reasoning yet for these feelings i just feel like something is not right.It can be as simple as i feel you have lied to me.I just don't know it yet.That can cause a feeling in me.Or feel that your keeping something from me.This is what i feel about the Sgt that I'm watching his daughter.I told my husband i don't know what it is but it is something.He knows after 18 yrs that i am probably right.Like i said it could be as small as a white lie he has told me.I just feel "not right" when it comes to him.Maybe its because he has lied since the beginning.He told me it would be 3 on 3 off and then some weekends.It has been 5 on 2 off(my weekend)and 6 on.And bringing her of a morning.Look i did say i would do this because it wouldn't be a problem since i have to take Chan anyway.But don't use me and abuse my generosity.OK that's when i get pissed when i feel like your taking advantage of me and not appreciating what I'm doing.Am i wrong?Should i just do what he wants?Look i know plans change work schedules change its the military but don't guilt trip me into it.Flexible yes,understanding yes.

     I was doing this as a kindness to a fellow comrade as they say.He bolts in here yesterday and says to me "you need to give me a heads up on your due date".I'll take a wk off or get my niece to come down here for your Week of DOWN_TIME.Oh that flew all over me.I was speechless i couldn't speak.He says that and i told him that i may go back to tn in June.Well you need to give me a heads up.I thought well buddy this is your heads up.I'm telling you know.I do not intend to keep anyone when i have this baby.We told him when we started this that it was until the baby comes.It may end sooner if she doesn't straighten up a little bit toward Chan.Oh oh you just don't know how wide my mouth was open as he was speaking of my downtime and getting her back to me after the birth.I'm still shaking my head...What do you think?I had these feelings of him before this conversation...