Lately I've been seeing alot of TV shows with a "girls(ladies)night together.I wish i had such a thing.Do you all have girlfriends you get together with on a regular basis?Do you just chat or drinks,cards?

    Well today is crunch day for Chan and i.We both have to bust our butts to get this project done for tomorrow.I guess it is a book called Homework Hassle kinda fits huh?Well I'm just no good a school projects.Heck here lately it seems I'm not real good at anything.I just want to rest.

   The mind amazes me.I just wish i could wrap my mind around why and what brings on a full blown attack of depression?Is it our faults rise to the surface and take over or what?I can be fine one day or wk and the next thing i know i am just wanting to cry and feel so down.I just don't understand Me.I hate that.If i knew what would bring it on or stop it i would do it.I hate feeling inadequate.I hate feeling gloomy all day and just questioning everything I've ever done.question my getting pregnant so late in life,or if i can't raise Chan right what am i doing bringing another child into this world?Oh the things that go on and around my head bring me down more.Maybe it is this book report that has brought on the self doubt and self loathing of myself this weekend.I don't know and my blog bites i rant about the same thing yet i have felt kinda justified in blogging about it for this is my shoulder.Yet who wants to read it.Oh i need a nap already.Pathetic i know.