Being so close almost too close to someone can hurt you.This is the case for me today.I'm a moody person and i have mood swings.They havent been to bad here lately but today i just was in a hateful mood and therefore alan snubs me and goes away.It left me feeling like oh ok.If i'm smiling and happy you love me yet when i have a bad day your going to treat me like shit and have nothing to do with me and not say something like you''ll snap out of it or it'll be ok honey.No No just f you.Go off and be a complete ass.If i were to treat him that way well lets put it this way I couldn't treat him the way he is treating me today.Asshole.Gosh i wish i had somewhere to go just for a little while today.That is something else bothering me.The fact that he is fine with me sitting in this apt and not going or having any friends.That is disturbing to me.I think it is the PTSD.That he is trying to hide.A control issue that his Dr.said he has with me.He has gotten control of me thru our finances and controlling my coming and going.Oh what a day this is going to be.I hate this side of him.(i know mom-i know)We were supposed to go to the movies to see pirates i sure don't feel like it now.I just want to go to bed and stay.I think i will.Hope everyones day is a good one.Problems,trials,tribulation, is on my agenda today.