So half the weekend is over and I spent the majority of it between the sheets.  My voice is fried and I've been running a temperature.  I could be on my deathbed and not have one of those.  But this lovely bug is attacking on all fronts. 
And then I lose an hour's sleep tonight, but so does everybody.  I'll just make it up and sleep at least an hour longer tomorrow.  I really do need to get well...raising a child is harder when you are practically crawling on the floor.  Well, it's not that bad.  Yet.
My daughter's aunt found out today that her dad has pneumonia.  Apparently he had vomited at some point and breathed some into his lungs.  He will be on the ventilator longer, and they are pumping him full of antibiotics.  Another hurdle for him to cross.
I am still in shock over the situation as we are all aware that my daughter's dad truly meant to take his life this time.  To leave his mother who is dying of stomach cancer, to leave his two grown children and grandchildren, which he has little contact with, and  to leave our ten year old daughter.  I know what it's like for a child to grow up without their father.  I really do not want this for my daughter.
So much is out of our control though, you know?  That's the part about life that is so difficult.  It gets frustrating because I know I can only do for myself, make good choices for me and my daughter and my son.  So much is outside my realm and I just have to deal with it.
This just hammers home again to me that you can't be rational with someone who isn't rational, no matter what the cause of their dysfunction may be.  I know there was nothing that could have been said to my daughter's dad to talk him out of this.  He was bound and determined.  He was almost successful in this attempt.
To really change and get help one has to want to do it for themselves, for the right reasons, to be genuine in their efforts.  I really do hope that by the time my daughter's dad is in residential treatment he is in that place.
Wow, a lot to digest.  I think I'll go back to thinking about daylight savings time.