We went out tonight, and I think that if anything could have gone wrong it did. I guess I can't really complain, because we made it home safe and sound.

I hate to sound so cliched, but gosh, after tonight it is really hard not to think that life's a bi*** and then you die. Of course some die faster than others. That's what adds to the melancholy of this post and life in general right now.

My daughter's granny just isn't well and from all appearances and tests so far, we really do think that her body may be full of cancer. I really hate to see the family go through watching her die. It really is so sad.

And nothing else seems to go right too. Yeah, I sound like a sad sack, and yeah, I may have a little bit of adult beverage in me, but still. For once, it would be great if something, anything, would go mostly positively.

We went past my old apartment tonight and there is a for rent sign. Good luck with that, old landlord. The economy is in the sh**ter and there are places for rent all over, and still sitting empty.

Geez, how do I keep from hating someone for taking most everything familiar to me from me for the past two years? I had such great hopes there, but still, my son too decided that home as we knew it wasn't worth being in it.

I live this surreal life now. If you can call it a life right now. Somehow I just got to build a new one.

Hey, if I pi**ed you off in another post, get over it. I get to speak the truth too. If I entertained you, then I'm glad I gave you a chuckle. Life is too short to be mad forever.

I think I will finish this post and go to bed. Murphy's Law seemed in full force for much of the evening, so I want to retire my bed and wake tomorrow - oops, it is already tomorrow - with some fresh optimism. At least for the the first couple hours of the day...lol.