So, this is my first post so i will talk a little about the difficult moment i have been through and of course about a great guy who is helping and its because of him that i joined mybloggers.

I have always had girlfriends, always felt good to have a girl to be with, but lately i have been struggling with a thing i can't deny, i always had the feeling for guys, but always been easy to deal with, but at this moment of my life i believe its more than just a feeling, it's a need, something that i should just accept as part of my life, but i just can't, not because of me, but because of what people around me would think (yea, i know you shouldn't deny your feelings, and you should try to be happy) but where i live this things aren't accepted at all, so it will be much easier for me if i just "live in a lie"... this things are making me my life so difficult.

About a week ago i meet an incredible guy on a chat room, he deals with the same problem, the only thing is that he is married, and he dealed with it his whole life... so i really take him as an example for me and i really admire him for what he is, he is my hero :) We have been chatting about everything and with him i feel really good, because i can be myself, he just understands things so perfectly. Lately i have the NEED to chat with him everyday, i am always trying to get some free time to be with him, at least 1 hour of my day i can be myself and be with such a nice guy.
I know he will read this, and everything i said here he already knows, the only problem is he thinks too much about age difference, he is 50 years old and i am 22, but for me it isnt a problem, as long as we follow each other toughts, and we really do, we connect really pefectly, never tought i met someone on internet that could change my life like he did :) Thank you Robin, you saved the day.