I guess I'll start with yesterday. Yesterday we took all of the resident's to the fair. Great for them, bad for us. It was 95 degrees and sweat was pouring off of me all day long as I managed to push someone more then half my weight around for 5 hours. It's good for them to get out and they enjoy it. But boy oh boy I had a night long headache. Six Advil, a shower, and a good nights sleep later I have finally recovered lol.

Work today has slowly but surely progressed into one of those hard, gut wrenching days. My buddy died at approx 11am this morning. He had lived a long life and his family was by his side... but my heart hurts. Never again will I hear his voice yell " Hey honey" as I walk by him in his wheelchair. Never again will he whisper " I love you" when I lean down for a hug. Never again will I see his face light up, and hear his laughter. He was not " my job", he was my friend. Everyone loved him because it was impossible not to. I was blessed to be able to know him and I am thankful for the experience. I truly hate this part of the job. I don't just hate it, I despise it.The nurse warned us all yesterday that he wouldn't make it much past the night. All of his organs were shutting down. I went in yesterday and *secretly* said goodbye. He tried to talk, but it wasn't words. It was more like gurggles. I held his finger and looked into his eyes and talked to him about the weather. He loved to go sit outside and watch all the people walk by. I've had to keep super busy today- which has been easy because my boss is out and so everyone comes to me with the problems. Problems are no fun, but they sure beat the sadness that I feel during the time that problems don't occupy my mind.

Tonight will be spent at Mike's game ( last one of the season). I moved all of my things in on Sunday and living with him has been awesomely surreal.

Just one more hour and I can get out of here. I just feel so numb...