OK, I'm freaking out a little. NP called last night, and is still looking at flights for Thanksgiving. Am I wrong to think that we should wait until we see how Milan goes??? Or is my fear just getting the best of me. Fear can be so powerful. I'm working on denying this fear and not letting it get control, but it really is hard.

I have two skirts, two pairs of pants and four light sweaters for a week in Milan. I figure I'll just rotate things. He told me to pack light, so I am. We are going to try to see an Opera in this old opera house in Milan. How exciting!!! I'm so psyched that I haven't been sleeping which is not good. Need to chill out.

On a different note, a good friend is upset with me, and it has made me think. She has always been there for me to help me when I need it. I am very lucky and grateful to have her in my life. We have so much fun playing together -whether at a tree lighting ceremony or drinking a really great bottle of wine. I have not always been the best little sister. There were times when I was down right mean to her when growing up, and I'm sorry for those times. I said something in a blog that was meant to be in a jocking manner, but it really hurt her. I never meant it to be mean. I value her friendship, and I miss her when she doesn't talk to me. I know that she is going through a tough time. If she ever wants to talk, she knows how to find me. Love you Gwendo!