Given all of the drama I have had during the past few years, I have come to learn that if I could have done it all over again, I would have done it much differently:

1. I would never have gotten married. Even though I would be single for probably the rest of my life, I would have been happy, stress free, and not having to go through all of the hell I have been put through by an uncaring wife.

2. I never would have moved. The only reason why I agreed to move from where we were was because my wife was always complaining that we needed more space for the dogs. It wasn't until after we moved that everything in my life started to go downhill- and that was the beginning of the end for me and the marriage.

3. I would not have listened to my wife and would have continued to work- even though my health was not good and was failing.
I had been recently hired by a local community college as a part time Learning lab specialist, and was told that the position was being made permanent full time the next academic year and it was going to be given to me.
I would have started in a 5 figure salary, plus benefits.
I would have rather continued to work even though I was sick. I would rather have risked the chance of dying on the job than losing everything I had worked so hard for (specifically all of my retirement earnings).

I hope that this can help others going through the same situation.

Here I am, a man with an extensive academic background and tons of degrees, certifications and experiences, and can't find a full time job in my field.I recently began working in a full time position now in my field, but have learned it is being eliminated due to state budget cuts. Now I have to start searching all over again.
This should never have happened to me.
I have no one to blame but myself.
] wish when I was sick that I had died. I almost did. Then, my suffering would have been over.