If you have a job right now- be grateful and do everything you can to protect it.

I know from personal experience that when you lose a job- as I have- and have not been employed full-time for a long time-
it really can destroy your sense of worth and purpose as well as respect others have for you- even your own close family.

It seems that since I have been unable to find work- not because of lack of trying ( sent out over 200 resumes- gone on over 25 interviews- spent hundreds of dollars on gas- only to be told I'm either not qualified or over qualified)- friends have deserted me, family has turned their backs on me, and even in my own house, I am now being treated as if I am servant.

I long for the day when I can again be working full-time and be out of the house- no longer having to be told what to do, how to do it- or when to do it- and not having to baby sit restless dogs or listen to constant complaints or being nagged all of the time.
When I was working full time I was able to feel good inside- proud of who and what I am and accomplished- and had respect from friends, family members and spouse.
Not now.
How I long for the day when I will be able to get back into the work force and become productive again.
I hope and pray it will be soon.
I don't know how long I can go on like this- not knowing where my next meal will come from or having enough money-
$480 per month for the past 7 months has been pure torture- sleepless and restless nights- emotionally upset not being able to pay bills- having to beg and borrow money- just want to get away and leave forever.
Please keep me in your thoughts.