the one called Secret Lovers. You don't even have to stay the night why not just hang out for a while, sure we can watch a movie. I might even cook you some "horrible" Vegan dinner that's looks like meat but is not near the real thing. These are the things I wish could have existed.

I am sorry I wasn't able to endure your test and I felt every thing you said was a step closer to sex. Did you even have a clue what this woman needed?

I know it sounds like a commitment but sometimes people need something a little different. After all society has defined a whole bunch of other relationships what's wrong with one that is built upon our own definition? We have time to decide if our road leads to marriage.

Because quite honestly friendship isn't doing it! When I am around you I want to touch you. I want to wear something that you desire. I can't forget what it was like kissing you and how your skin felt when I caressed you. I don't need all your attention actually I am very self sufficient. But damn I think I get a little jealous when I see you talking with a lady. I just need some security that I got something they don't have.

But the story has been set and my emotions flexed. Writing this allows me to give instructions of what's in my head. I had my cries and my confidence levels tried but I am not in distress because you still make me smile. Last year was a fun and I wonder is it true was Shalamar right? Is it better the Second Time Around?

I don't know? I feel like the substance in another try. Being emotional is hard for me my world is built upon zeros and ones, its all logic. I have to pause. damn too deep? After all at some point I want to give my feelings a try. However I don't even know how. Logic beats emotional in every round. Do you think you can give me safe place and show me how?


Life is short,
Break the rules,
Forgive quickly,
Kiss slowly,
Love truly,
Laugh uncontrollably,
And never regret anything that made you smile.