Hey!
So I went through this thing this morning of not being good enough. Always feeling I am second best or my time is not going to come etc. Oh I could go on through the countless tales of rejection. Well to summarize you know life gets you down at times and it's hard to pull yourself up. The challenge of winning or getting to next level is what motivates most people. I am motivated that way. Sure we can't win them all but we try and prepare ourselves for the next time, so we can win.
Anyways my aunt had to fix me or put my head back on straight but the words she said today reminded me of our conversation on Sunday.
You mentioned your boss was a control freak etc and your attempts at trying to make a change had failed due to a snitch. Perhaps you have some other ways to influence change in your organization but I think you might be correct in that some times it is time to move on. Going to a place where you can realize your full potential and satisfy your dream. It may seem like the easy way out but its not. It is great to help people, or feel needed but we have to live for what we need too. Change is scary but it opens up so much room for potential. Sure there will always an obstacle but only you can determine your self-worth and how far you want to go. Not the boss-man, your parents, significant other and not the people who say we are only best at number 3.
I am not sure what your next level is but knowing you I am sure you are ready for it. And knowing you, you will achieve it. It may seem like there are many dependencies and things that need to be sorted out but my suggestion is to divide and conquer them so you can find your next avenue.
So my 33 year old wisdom is don't let the "man" in charge get you down. Find the way around him or through him that you feel most comfortable with. Don't break ties but find your pathway. The best way to show others is not through revenge but through your success! The best way for you to feel satisfied is not by waiting in a line that may never move but creating your own line!
Okay partner just thought I would share my wisdom today.
See you Saturday!