Sometimes I think about you and I want to call you or text u but I don't. I don't because I don't want to bother you. Perhaps I feel it's just a silly female thing and you will just think less of me. Remember I am used to having guy friends and this emotional shit is new to me. Plus I am fairly sure you have other things going on.

I am that women of yester year. Who sort of had a chance to be a something but didn't feel respected so left on her own will. But still know that I broke a lot of trust and perhaps sent mixed messages. Maybe you understand and please see it was only reaction to what was felt from your actions. I need time to warm up to most people, it's just a me thing.

I think, you are not into commitments? You like to have women but perhaps you can see me as the one who doesn't quite fit that script. I don't want your money, your house, or expensive trips. I don’t want to change you, what I want is very simplistic. I just want to have fun! Dance, talk and to have a little companionship. Ok maybe one day I might hit you up for a ride on the motorcycle. In return, I will come over help you shovel the snow after our snowball fight. I would never take from you without giving something in return.

I wish I could still invite you over just to rub your chest or stroke your shoulders. Just like one night when we listened to soft house music and slept under the candles. That was fun even though one element was missing. We could let our minds wander. Discuss the important and unimportant alike. You don't have to be scared around me I don’t share what we say and I love to hear you when you let your mind discern. I can’t help it intellect turns me on. It would be a safe haven or an escape from the world kind of like a song maybe the one ...


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