I know some of you have alredy read this on Blogster, but I wanted to post it here as well! Sorry to duplicate!

We're coming up on 2 years since my dad has left us. Surprisingly, I made it through the whole "first's" year, except around the holidays...but for some reason, I have been really missing my dad lately. I'm not sure what's going on in my head that is making me think of him so much more right now...don't get me wrong, I think of him all of the time, just more at times than others. So, right now..I've been thinking of him alot. As I was driving home yesterday, on my 5 hour drive...I saw a bird soaring through the sky just slightly ahead of my car, and I could help but wonder if that could be my dad...guiding me down the road safely?! I think of weird things like this sometimes...and I'm sure that to some, it may even sound stupid...but to me it's not!

I guess that I am just wondering what exactly it is that triggers one's brain to miss people more at one time than at another? There isn't really anything significant going on in my life right now, that I would really "need" him for, so what could it be? Any ideas??

I also used to get really mad when people would tell me that I was acting like my dad...but now when people tell me that I am acting like him...it makes me proud! I'm proud to be like my dad...and I feel that I am who I am today, partly because of him! Yes, I picked up some not so good traits from him, but in some situations, those not so good traits, turn out to be pretty damn useful!! One thing that I always joke about is a little saying that my dad used to have hanging up in his truck, that read: It's All About ME! Him and I would always tell him that it's NOT all about him and of course he would argue back that it was...and now I tell people that "It's All About ME!!" And I don't say it to make people think that everything needs to revolve around me, and most times I say it jokingly, but I did learn from my dad, that I need to live my life for ME and that I need to do things for ME and I need to take care of ME...so therefore...it is all about me!! LOL! It's a great philosophy to live by.....

~Angelgirl~