Contemplations of why I set a goal of loosing weight and getting Buff. Quick response, I simply don't want to look like "dough boy" in my vacation pics; want to put an end to previous snide remarks & laughter - "You'll never do it". I have a very expensive Bowflex system, but had to keep moving it...seems it was in the way of others "space", till it ended up in a closet. Now I live alone, with plenty of room, still, it collects cobwebs. The quiet steel of the Bowflex just no longer inspired me, though in my head I knew - It's Up To ME, To Decide, but still something was missing - motivation and Human Contact. So I invest in a "plan", and am telling others I have a plan (that way I have to accomplish something or be the butt of jokes again!). Am not trying to "regain" the body of youth, never had a "buff" body even in youth. Living alone now, having overcome years of depression, am willing to look inward and see why I became so out of shape. Believe I am smart enough to accomplish anything I set my mind to. I know there is no magic pill to accomplish this, just shear will-power and self-determination, and hard work. I so want to get the last laugh; to be able to say "look at me, I did it, and, well, look at you! So be it it if I need a little vanity and vindictiveness to inspire me to start.In the end I just want a healthy mind and body to live a life of enjoyment.