Felling anger
Tempestuous sad
Eulogy given, but no relief
For anger and disbelief
The ups and downs,
Emotions on a shoestring
Neutral dude, strong,
Shed not a tear, pretending 2 B strong
When no one looks, I cry
Pretending 2 b stong, I try
Breath deep, no easy sigh
Frriends and lovers by my side...
Pushed aside
The anger- pain
Overwhelming sanity sences
Giving up on all pretences
Red flags raised and ignored
Till, much too late
Just what subtlety did i miss, 2 late
2 recalculate the words I gave
Left now with the pain of "what if's"
In my anger,
In his anger,
Did our words miscommunicate?
A need 2 love and understand...
Cell phone battery did die,
Cut short, 2 soon , a constructive battle's end..
Never, now, 2 b resolved...
Our bittersweet relationship:
Who left whom,
Who loved whom,
Brothers battle, petty misconceptions
Words of anger,
Words of petty anger
Tried to bridgethe gap
Tried to bridge the abandoned anger
Tried to bridge the need of a brother -n - need
Tongue tied and twisted,
In my my own need, Refused 2 apologize
For roads i did travel weary , now
Rough n tumble,
Love n hate,
Battles between the 2
welcome to the fammily, Ennist
Psych meds as candy,
Up n Down, a rollercostr ride, frightful
anxiety ridden
Ridden high n low
Busbar white, n Xanax blue...
Multicolor meds to alter mood...
Working hard to pay my dues
Trying hard 2 make it back
To the famly fold, on tract

Felling anger
Tempestuous sad
Eulogy given, but no relief