I hate that feeling... That feeling where your stomach is in knots and you feel like you could either vomit or spend eternity on the toilet- ICK!! I get this way when my anxiety is high. I know my body and I know that I need to de-stress somehow, someway. Yesterday my admirer bought me two sweatshirts from the beach. I tried giving them back and explaining that I couldn't take them-- but he wouldn't take them back. Then I had to write this long, blunt, meanish email about how I have a bf and blah, blah, blah. I feel so bad about it. I think I really hurt his feelings, but I just didn't know what else to do. He got the point b/c today he won't even look at me. I guess that's best, but I feel like a total butthead! Being mean and hurting people's feelings, and then having to work with them amidst the awkwardness gives me anxiety! I just want to go home, curl up in my bed and just sleep the rest of this ridiculous week away! Hopefully I'll be really busy today and it'll just go by fast.

Then tonight Mike is going to a Phillies game and I hafta stay home and watch Chase. I plan on just vegging out n snuggling with my pooch. Who could be upset when they have a nice, big, 95Ilb, green eyed, pup to cuddle? Although, cuddling is a bit of a challenge for him. He's still in that puppy phase where sitting/laying still for more than 5 minutes is virtually impossible. And he has this dominance issue where he has to be in charge lol. If we lay on the bed, he towers over me and puts his big, monstrous paw on my face, or my chest claiming his territory haha!Chocolates certainly are stubborn lol. They say that they don't calm down till about two, so we have one more year of him chewing the siding off the house, chasing him around to get my socks, underwear, or paper towels back. He may be bad,stubborn, and honorary but he's my baby.

I must get to work. Hopefully my anxiety will work it's way out of my system. BLEH!!