I feel bloated and huge today. I felt the same way all day yesterday too. My diet has completely gone down the tubes. My friend Andy came over on Monday night to help me move some furniture out of the room where my new roommate will sleep. We hung out and ate horrible food.

I realize that I have a horrible weakness around my friends. I will eat whatever they are eating no matter how bad it is. I need to find a way to combat this issue. I seem to have no will power around them. I order bad food and then eat it. What is wrong with me???

I also haven't been to the gym this week since Sunday which is way too long. I need to stop going out so much on the weeknights. I had a baseball game last night and then I'm going out tonight. I need to settle down a little.

I know that I've been making my weeks and weekends action packed to help combat the loneliness. However, I'm eating like crap and not working out enough. I can't get up to exercise at 4:45 am when I don't get home until around 11 pm.

Next Friday I leave for an Alaskan cruise with my Mom. I was hoping to be ten pounds lighter for this trip. I'm going to exercise and eat healthy on the boat. I know they have a gym, and I have planned some very physical shore excursions like kayaking. I think I will use this cruise to get back on track.

I have a new goal which will help. Mom and I decided to go to Sedona for our next week long vacation. We'll be going the end of January. Two years ago I spent my birthday in Spain and next year for the big 35 I will be surrounded by the red rocks of Sedona.

My goal is to lose 15 pounds between now and then. Given the amount of time I have, I think this is easily doable. It just means more exercise, better food choices and less drinking. I want to look rocking in my swimsuit!!!!