I'm feeling much better today. I haven't even cried once! Yeah!!!!

On the downside, in a moment of weakness....I texted Mike. I couldn't help it. I miss him. I really do. This happened yesterday during my lunch hour at work. I went to get a pedicure thinking that if my toes look better then I will feel better. It didn't really work though. We talked over text a little bit. Yesterday was his birthday, and he ended up going sailing. I know that I shouldn't be in touch with him. I just can't help it though. I find myself waiting for a text to know how his day is going. I feel a little pathetic.

I had a ton of fun last night. "The Child" came over and cheered me up. If you are unfamiliar with him, I'll explain a little at the end of the blog. We talked and watched a movie. We drank some red wine and reminisced a little. We made each other laugh. He listened to my tail of woe, and I didn't even cry when telling it. It's amazing how much more optomistic you can be when looking at a cute boy. It was really good for me. I needed to know that life goes on and that I will laugh and love again.

We are going to hang out again hopefully next week to finish watching the movie. I of course put on my best boob shirt and got all dolled up for him. I mean you can't blame me. He has a girlfriend that he's been dating for a couple years now. She lives in Vermont, but that doesn't mean I çan't shamelessly flirt! He gave me the most wonderful heartfelt hugs. He commented that he forgot how short I am. Life is looking up today, but I still really miss him.



"The Child" is someone that I dated a little right after my divorce around two years ago. He is ten years younger than me. We had a short but fun fling. I think I may have de-flowered him which I had no idea about. He has since graduated college, is working part time and lives at home with his parents. I've known him for about six or seven years. I never in my wildest dreams thought that we would ever have a fling. Crazy.