The past few months have been a real blessing for me. A challenge to say the least, but a blessing in finding my inner peace.

I've been wrestling with myself. Who I am. What I'm about. It's been emotional for me to say the least.

Life is interesting in that it throws things at you to help you step up into what you can become. I have had serious insecurities over my self-worth as a person. A couple of failed job opportunities where I was canned for being me, not for my excellent job performance. Fired because I was confident in myself, happy and congenial, but not sucking up as is sometimes a 'standard' in the industry I have chosen.

It's been three months of me listening to the quiet. Listening to what's inside me. Working is a great way to avoid the issues I'd have rather not dealt with. But here I've been, unemployed and forced to deal with myself.

Yesterday, ... well, it took me two months (hell, 10 months) to figure out what my base issue was ... but yesterday, the epiphany arrived. And now that I know, I've set myself free.

It's okay that I'm not perfect; It's even better that I have addressed where all my anxiety was stemming from. Last night, I shared with my man why I was so cruel to his friends and so insecure with anything to do with his 'back home' life. It wasn't about them at all. It's always been about me. And now that I know why, I've let it go. WHOOO HOOO!!

Whew ... thank the Divine.

My man loves me and I love him. And that's great!!

Working on being a true friend to my awesome man and loving myself because I, too, am magnificent.

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