... I ponder China. My good friend has a film he's producing there. There is a prospect of him creating a job for me, as he and I have a big brother/little sister relationship. He's so kind. How fast can I learn Mandarin?
Being in the mountains of China for 3 months. Truly, it sounds wonderful. Like a grand adventure and good way to move out of my rut in and into an interesting gig. But still, I want to be close to my man. (Men and women are different in this, I think. In my industry, men tend to leave town for months on end to work and not think twice about leaving their girlfriends/wives/families.)
Me? If anything, "I'm a female female." I want to be close to home. See my parents for Christmas. See my mom on her birthday. Be with my love on New Years.
It's great to have the prospect of an interesting job, and seriously, the heavy challenge of learning Mandarin in less than two months sounds like something I'd love to tackle.
I'm not sure where my head is at, it's cloudy and muddled in there today. I know where my heart is at. Age and living is an interesting thing. My heart matters more than my head.
I will wait to see how this prospect susses out. I'll worry about my heart and my head then.