i did something today and i am not sure if i did right or wrong. i think lloyd has been lying to me for a long time. but i know that he lied to me for sure last night. to me this is major. he went on a big hunting trip this weekend. anyway. awhile ago i came home one night and he was very drunk and i told him if i caught him again i would be gone. well i kinda had a hunch he was drinking behind my back. don't get me wrong i can handle the beer it is the hard liqoir i have a problem with. well yesterday he went to the grocery for stuff for the trip. i asked what he bought. he told me and he said he had bought beer. so i asked what else. he said that was it. he knew exactly what i ment when i asked what else. like i said he said he didn't buy anything else. well today i had a hunch he did. so me and a friend went out and searched the camper and what did i find but a bottle of peppermint schapps and a bottle of lord calverts hidden in the microwave in the camper. well there not there anymore they are here but in there place i put a note. (not wise to lie to your wife). but now i'm not sure if i did right or wrong. he was not going to be around us drinking it. but if he is hideing it from me going hunting is he hiding it around here to and drinking when i am not around.

the major thing is i came home last weekend to and i am sure he had beed drinking something other that just beer. beer does not effect him but the hard stuff slurres his voice. i don't know if i did right or wrong. but i do know that it has brought me one more step closer to packing me and the kids and leaving.

i was a big time drinker about 12 or 13 years ago. i quit cause of something stupid i did. a couple of years ago i started again. nothing major just a smirnoff here and there. but a year ago in august i decided i didn't need that either.

anyway i don't know if i did right or wrong taking his booze. i guess it bothers me more that he lied to me about buying it. and then hideing from me.

butterfly