I'm tired. Wanting to hide under the covers. I've been running and running and trying and striving. And there are obstacles. And life happens. And good things happen. And I get frustrated when I feel lesser. And usually I'm happy. And I feel without job purpose. And I write. And I listen. And I go to the gym. And I file unemployment. And I take a 2 day job. And I turn down work I do not want that would pay me 'enough' but isn't what I want. And my friends do not come by my apartment. And my business partners have wants other than what I want. And I understand everyone has their own needs. And I'm tired. And I feel like crying my eyes out. Have been crying my eyes out and it doesn't change anything except I get puffy eyes. And my boyfriend is the most amazing person. And his love for me is overwhelming. And I wonder what life is bringing. And I sing in church and pray. And I sit at home and pray. And I write. And I wonder. And I'm tired but want more. And I donate my old bed and clothes to the Jewish Center for Women because they do pick-up and my little Honda can't fit a bed inside it. And my little Honda has been used as a bed when I'm out and tired and need 5 minutes to rest my eyes. And I change my mind and know this is a new moment. Still ... ... ... I'm tired today.