Big Brother, Little Brother
A big family we were part of
Father absent ,
Mother paranoid,
Reached out to both of you
Just to find an argument anew
Elder brother, smart
Re-engineer a nuclear submarine
But can't find the way
To accept
Your little brother's
Different take on life
So burn the canvass
So burn my out reach to you
Wondering now
Mom's not as crazy as SHE SEEMS
She predicted, no call back from
Did U not get the message?
Or did U turn your back on me again
Did not need your financial help
Did not need your help at all
Just called to say hello
But as predicted
You did not return my call
So be it
Don't need your hit again
So you turn your back on me again
Was expected anyway
Your so smart, yet so dumb
Am indifferent to your indifference
So disrespect me, as U always DID
Used to, now, our pathetic indifference
So shun me,
Your loss
Cause,I no longer give a fucking damn

Little brother
Did come to see
Adventures on Mayan temples
We did share
Tho distorted by
The Cancun blow
Argued, yet we know
The family connection
Laughed,at the disrespect U did
But at least U gave the effort
To meet me somewhere
Perhaps not in the middle
But, at least somewhere
Even though, still, insulted me
Credit due, and credit given
At least You met me somewhere

Family values
Despite the sperm donor
I tried, in vain
To install, to next generation
A sense of family
Tried in vain
To establish consistency
A home to come back to
And only in your dire need
Dare you call upon me
In need of something
A falsified recommendation,
A buck or two
To get out of jail
Or to buy needed school supplies
Just where is my lawn mower again?
No help, what soever
When I need help
Not even, a night of pool
On my own tab
Left alone, abandoned
In my own hour of need

Almost 17 years of elder care
Burnt before,
In my demands of proper care
Left out, to defend myself again
Standing small, in defense
Of the elderly confused
Once again, no support
Dare I rock the boat again?
Just to see the rats leave
My own sinking ship
I've seen reality
No one really gives a damn
My wounds, not yet healed
From battles lost
Left alone, to wonder why?
Just why, do I give a damn?

Elder brother, abandoned me
Alone, on the sand dunes
Did I rest till I could leave
Younger brother, took your disrespect
Till again I could flee to home
Yet, I find
In my own home,
No guarantee of respect
Kids, in need call upon
Am inclined, to again, a helping hand give
But just where is the lawn mower?
Tho now I pay, to have it mowed
And pay the lawn guy to help
Drywall the past holes of angry destruction
Tho not a "professional"
Hard working in his own need
An honest stranger half blind
Who at least will work hard, and sweat
To repair the walls destroyed
Destroyed by family tantrums
An honest stranger in need
Who, strangely, gives
More sweat and blood to this home
Than the kids, for which
I struggle so,to make a home

Big Brother, Little Brother
A big family we were part of
My own family
Blended not so seamlessly
Here and there
In and out
In defense of elder care,
Been screwed there too
Teetering on the edge
Of giving up in disbelief
That anyone, really gives a damn
Just why do I still
Hold out hope
Hold out my hand
To give a helping hand
Just why?
Do I care?
Just why?
Do I still offer my hand to help?
Just why?
Do I still try to believe
In the Humanity of this life?