What smile did I show
What sweet little lie did I say
Morning med pass seen
One did say, "with that smile
I'd be afraid to take the med"
But I can't disguise
My joy in elder care
My compassion dance
What smile
What dance
Did I do?
At day's dawning break
To make others say
"with that smile and dance,
I'd be afraid to take your meds"
What smile
What dance
Do I do?
Compassion in the caring,
Elder care
Giving myself, without thought
Dance the joy, of compassion giving
Innately done
'Cause I give a damn"
But still find it strange
When others views it so
Just "Wat where You doing,
Smiling so
Dancing so"
Little lies, I told so
That life is great
'Cause dawn did break
To see another day
What white lies I say
What wiggle dance I do
To bring a smile
Upon the elders' tired eyes
In the breaking
Of the dawning day.
Compassionate, in the caring
Distressing, in the lack of compassion
Not so subtle
In my disdain
Of lack of quality care
Passive aggressive,
Few friends I make
In elder care
Based upon, my standards of care
So strange when others see
And comment snide
What smile did I show
What sweet little lie did I say
What magic did I weave
To find it strange?
Compassion in the caring?
What smile did I show,
What sweet little lie did I say,
What dance did I do?
To make others fearful of what I do.
What smile
What little lies do I say?
What dance do I do
When giving cares
To elders in need
That should make others hate me so?
Is my compassion
Above the realm of expectations"?
Innately do I smile
Innately do I tell a tale
Innately do I show my compassion
For the elder care.
Don't know why I smile so,
Don't know why I care passionately so,
When it kills me so
To witness lack of caring so
Verbose or passive aggressive
In the end I get burned
For my demands
Of quality care
In elder care
What smile
What little lies do I say?
What dance do I do
When giving cares
To elders in need
That should make others hate me so?
Is my compassion
Just not welcomed in the realm
Of compassionate elder care?


Ryan Adams, "Itaught Myself How to Grow Old"