I tried to b the man
U wanted me to be
Butch and tough
But couldn't toss the ball
well enough to suit
In flight of fancy
Kayla and I, backyard adventures
To discover the tiny flowers in bloom
and a bug or two did loom
Our adventures called queer, doomed
Working night- n- day to pay the bills
Say what I saw, dare to lay down the law
To no avail, life revolved around only you
Still I tried, alone I cried
I tried to b the man
U wanted me to be
Till I cared no longer to be
Each day I awoke
depression sank, not the man to be
Rendered pointless,
Awaking each day, just being was pointless
no room for me to be
for me to be alive
your hatred, no place to hide
my self hatred did slide
and fell to dark places
I tried to b the man
U wanted me to be
It all fell apart, in dishonesty
Nothing left to give, honestly
Called it quits, alimony was judged
But for the kids, so what said a court judge
Paid her, the price I paid
No longer bound to a hateful spouse
But to the kids, left open my house
Ransacked and stolen from, apparent louse
So self aware, so full of shit
fear me now, my scathing wit
When all treated me like shit
From canyon walls, Caribbean blue
In my travels, now see what I'm due
Simple respect, for what I do
I tried to b the man
U wanted me to be
Now I'm the man i want to be
To think, I did so much
And Did It My Way
Living now a life thats full
"Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption...
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!"

I tried to b the man
U wanted me to be
But in the end
I became the man I am.