In the past 16 years, only had 2 main stable jobs. Routine is my mainstay.I know what day of the week it is, only by what I do at work. April blew my entire routine (and my sanity) out of the water. Thank God, I had a beloved sister I could call - to hear my my anxiety-ridden, panicking-ridden late-night rants! Got a new job pretty quick, at a higher pay no less. It turned out to be a job from hell. Am a nurse, with my own standards of "quality care". Seems money enticed me into a no-win, nightmare situation. What I saw was sub-standard care, anything goes,Literally, was having nightmares about work. Then the final straw - after just 3 weeks. Apparently NOBODY is in charge, nobody has a clue what was going on there. Was hired for full-time work, with "obvious plans to Fix something". Guess not everyone got that memo. On start of my 3rd week, got a call from staffing, "corporate office in TX (I'm in MO) hired too many people, was "given", just, 3 days to wrk for the entire month of May, but would i please come in for that evening's scheduled shift.Well, I need a paycheck, so I did. Next morning, went to administrative office with my complaints. Of course they "knew nothing about this". Of course not, nobody knows a damn thing there. Stayed up after having already worked a 12hr night shift, and got yet another job. That evening, wrk called me up and attempted to lie about what they told me the evening before. Screw that, "won't be back to work there, EVER", I said. Now I have a job at a slightly lower wage. Already have a reputation as the "One" the DON was "stalking, in order to get on staff"! This job just might work out - care seems adequate to good, oversight/quality care seems to be in place, and the pay is still acceptable. Hmm, now I'm having a recurrent dream that I'm stuck in a re-run of a "Big-Brother like" reality TV show - but I cant recall who won, or how to play the game. Dreams are wierd, dreams sometimes mean something important. Can't figure out what that dream is saying, just yet. At least it's not a nightmare. What I see in my waking hours, what I dream in my slumbering hours; perhaps a Freudian wet-dream? What dreams will come next?