William and I have been engaged for close to 8 months now. We planned an April wedding, we couldn't wait so we moved it to August, but then I freaked out and backed out. We spent a lot of time talking about my fears, and I got over it, and we had to push it back 2 weeks. September 19th 2009, I will officially become married. I'm doing good up til this point, I love him very much and am so happy to be spending the rest of my life with him. It just freaks me out sometimes to know that this is it, and its coming down to the wire.

I asked my mom if she would be my maid of honor. She has been my rock and stone (other than Will of course) for the last year. I suffer from anxiety and depression, and trying to get help, not going very fast either. But she helps me with everything, a buddy to talk to, a shoulder to cry on. Her and Will have been a great help. So shes going to be my maid of honor and stand up there when I get married, which I am so excited for. I have 5 days to go, and am nervous as hell. It's now going so slow, its beginning to feel like time doesn't move.