so many things to do, so little time to finish them.

saturday will be joe's birthday party at his new house. shall i attend it or not??? will they be upset with my bad choice of words??? i'm trying so hard to improve my weakness but seems like it had never change anywhere, anyhow. shall i keep changing myself or just stay like this. no matter how hard i try to change or improve, it's still the same. would it be better that i just let myself sleep in the coffin right away then staying alive on earth and keep hurting people around me, making them pist off and left me all alone???