Unfortunatly when you are 14, it feels like everyone is against you. In some cases they are, and in some it's just a gap in understanding. You don't get the way they react to you, and they don't understand your thoughts and feelings. People will often say "i've been there", but truthfully we seldom remember all the turmoil and hate and sadness that a 14 yr old goes though. I remember it a bit, but cannot pretend to understand what you are going through. All I can say is I made it out alive. All the crap I went though with my mother and the rest of my family is over and although we will never be perfect, sometimes just surviving the time is enough. Good luck and you can always come here with your feelings