Whew, life has changed so much since I last blogged. I guess 6 months is a long time. I just cannot seem to find the time or the desire to sit down and blog much anymore. I go through phases...
So today I am writing just to "vent". Like I said, so much has changed since Bailey's birth. She is the most amazing little person ever! It does not matter how bad of a mood I am in, just walking in the door and seeing her makes me feel better. We took her Sunday to see Santa. Here is the latest pic of her....


Saturday night I told KR that I wanted a divorce. It took a few days for the news to sink in, but it looks like we will be separating as soon as the holidays are over. I just do not know what to think of the situation right now. Fortunately, since Bailey has been born he has straightened up and has tried to be a better husband and a good father. Unfortunately, it is just too late. I have been unable to completely forgive and forget all the past indiscretions. I am so saddened by this. I did not want this to end in divorce, especially now that we have Bailey, but I just do not see any other option at this time. It hurts so bad to see him hurting and upset, but what am I to do? I have tried to stay indiscretions how I feel, but that is just making me more and more miserable every day.

So now I constantly ask myself if I am doing the right thing. Is this the best for Bailey in the long run? Is this the best for me? So many questions!!!!!!! For now I have agreed to stay in his hometown so I do not take Bailey far from him. I know that I will not want to stay here forever though. What happens then? I know that people share custody everyday when they do not live close, but it sucks for me to even think about.