Alright, I figure its life update time. woohoo. or something like that. Ok so i have always wanted to be one of those youtube video bloggers, that has like hundreds of people that watch their videos and comment them, and basically look forward to seeing them / hearing what they are ranting about. So my goal is to be top blogger. yeah thats right. and to do that i need all of you that read this to help me out. widespread the word, have your friends read along, and add me. The way I am going to decide the topic is im going to pick a chris crocker video everyday, add the link to it at the start of my blog then rant about my opinion on the matter. i think that sounds dandy. I will be starting later today but for now heres an update on all the boy issues.

ok so me and matt got into it last night because he says i never share my feelings with him about how i feel about him, which ok yes that is true sometimes, but why should i when all we do is fight and he just pushes me. so i basically told him to leave me alone because he was annoying me to death, so we didnt talk. and today we talked a bit but he had the balls to say he wanted to like me without "all the drama" yeah, ok. haha.

anthony and i talked, hes pretty sweet he told me he will fight for me. i told him i wasnt really sure what i wanted right now or even if im in the right place now to be attached to anybody, that its a struggle right now in my mind to handle a relationship. so he told me he would wait for me. very sweet in my opinion at least, so we are doing better we talked until late last night, and watched enchanted at the same time. were doing good.

josh is out of the picture, he clearly can not make conversation with me anymore so i gave up because im not tieing myself to be upset about a little puppy crush theres no point, and im not into the whole, i put all the effort in and you enjoy doing nothing to help me.

and i have been talking to this guy shane he lives in chicago, goes to colombia university and hes one of the first guys i started talking to. we have become way closer, and i foudn out he was dating this guy since like last june, but they arent right now and have been having rough patches, because hes not sure if this guys right for him, and clealy hes not because he likes me. and he texted me today that he wants to be with me and all this other cute private stuff haha. heres a picture.



yeah hes basically adorable, i know.

so i decided the tattoo i want to get, mine will be smaller and it will be on my inner arm like up by my arm pit, winding up my arm and breaking on the shoulder.



ok and movie reviews.

enchanted:

it was so adorable, i like how the animation wasnt that whole 3d bull crap. it was like multiple fairytales combined in one story and i loved the whole concept alot. it had me laughing and crying. i recommend it.


August Rush:

the only thing i can say is it is so amazing, it made me cry like 6 times, but in a happy way. its a brilliant story and well planned out movie.