Firstly I want to say thank you to everyone for their encouragement on what I've posted.

Life is never easy, I've made wrong decisions but my heart is in the right place and I'm not stoic or anything crass like that towards my husband. He's still growing into being a husband. He's never been married before, even at our age and so in many ways he's like a teenager out of school who got hitched. It is not easy for me to be understanding to this sometimes and also the fact he never dated anyone seriously before me is a wrench into his relationship understanding.

We're coming along though. Maybe I expected way too much without realizing what I'd gotten into or maybe I trusted him too much because of his maturity and intelligence in other areas (besides marriage). I don't know. I do know I don't want to live in regret, bitterness & "tough shit on this and that" my whole life. I want to be happy.

Sincerely and really happy.

Nothing fake, nothing covered up........just........

HAPPY! :)